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Sunday, 30 December 2012

The who, what, why ?

I see you
you watch me
from the corner
of your eye

As I slip
through the shadows
you wonder
who ?
and what?
and why?

I follow
your every movement
gaze fixed
I never blink

If you ever turn
to face me
back to the other side
I will sink.

I am a demon
from the after life
or a piece of grit
in the corner of your eye

I am a phantom
of your imaginings
or a lost soul
that once did die

Curiosity and fear
torment you
as they battle for
control

Three questions
never answered
as your fragile life
I stole.

©spor

Thursday, 27 December 2012

blind side .

through dark eyes you view me
unable to see the good
shaded to the light
wholly willing to except bad
you take me for what you see
not who i  am
i resist not
to be taken at all is a luxury
others often miss
as they sit like a wilting wall flower
waiting
i am what i am
not who i am
for you.
be who you are
for you not me
it makes no difference
for i am blind.

©spor

Monday, 24 December 2012

At This Time Of Year

At this time of year,
we think of those we love,
we think of those who have left,
we think of those we have lost,
no matter how hard we try
just gazing at the night sky
brings a tear drop to the eye,
to each and every one
I wish you hope and joy
to each and every girl
and each and every boy.

©spor

Merry Christmas and happy holidays
one and all. it has been a great pleasure to read and share work with you all this year.


Sunday, 23 December 2012

In my head.

it is hard to be contented,
when you often feel demented,
there is a wood pecker in my head
and its constantly chipping away.

this constant distraction,
makes difficult for interaction,
and continual repetition
slowly grinds down the day.

the more i try to fight it,
the harder to hide it,
sitting alone and motionless
i cry.

©spor

hope everyone is well. its been i while.
happy Christmas.


Monday, 3 December 2012

the end

hold my hand in yours
look into my weeping eyes
don't leave me alone
please don't let me die.
please don't let me go
i take my last breath

Monday, 19 November 2012

The Buoy

little orange buoy
bobbing beautifully bright
beckoning me home.

©spor

Inner Fear

fear me now
for evil burns
i am the dark
i suffocate the light
you can not run
you can not hide
i am your demon
i am you.

©spor

breathtakingly dead

Angelic being
breathtakingly beautiful
glowing yet still dead.

©spor

Wednesday, 14 November 2012

H for Human

Honesty hidden
Haphazardly hurting hearts
Helplessly human.

©spor

Sunday, 11 November 2012

Remember Us ( for remembrance day)

Thick walls of mud
surround me
as i sit cold and damp
the boards under my feet
sinking
as the rain pours down

I await a whistle
a high pitch call
to take me to my death
to re unite me
with my fallen brothers.

We are the young
destined never to grow old
for you we bleed
for your children
we die
Remember Us.

©spor
for remembrance day.
for all fallen soldiers
I will not forget.

Drift Away

As I lay here
Wrapped in your arms
I want to drift away

The movement
Of your breathing chest
Rocking like the gentle ocean

The sound
Of your beating heart
As the waves break

The touch
From your hand
The tingling of the sea breeze

As I lay here
Wrapped in your arms
I want to drift away
With you
Forever.

©spor

Saturday, 10 November 2012

Through the Window Pain.

As a rain drop
Rolled down the window pain
It mirrored the tear drop
Slowly travelling
On my cheek

Both falling
Both refracting
All the colours of the rainbow
That where missing
From my heart

I turned away
In the hope that the sun would shine
But It did not
Only more tear drops on the window pain

Perhaps the fast approaching floods
With one triumphant wave
Would change everything
I turned to see you one last time
I turned too late.

©spor

Friday, 9 November 2012

The Visits.

When I visit
They sit behind protective glass
Hands twitching
And a murderous look in their eye
Uncomfortable does not cover the sensation.
My visits have got fewer
And shorter
As the years have gone by
Now I do most of my banking on-line

©spor

Powerful Perfect Pause.















Silence says so much







From a perfectly timed pause







We can shape the world.



©spor

Monday, 5 November 2012

100 pieces of ME.

What makes me Me?

My thoughts
My emotion
My dreams and
Flights of fantasy
My worries
My fears
My high
And lows
And of course ups
And downs
My Heartache
And heart break
My lust
Love
And loneliness
Answers
My little observations
On dying
And crying
And trying
And trying harder than before
My wife
Her life
My boy
And girl
Their pets
My regrets
Things I planted
Took for granted
Things I'd never seen before
Things I'll never see again
My Angels
And Demons
And especially stars
What I think about traffic
And fancy sports cars
How life should be
And how it is not
How I'm getting older
And the childhood
I forgot
My family alive
And those who have gone
How we all got here
Where we begin
Evil
And darkness
And inevitable sin
Loss
And laughing
And being laughed at
Coffee
And drinking it
And my views on that
Experience at night
In rain
With the cold
And the heat
Or walking
And footsteps
With isolated streets
Heroes
Vampires
And Ghosts
And lets not forget Christ
And God
Oh and the Holy Spirit
Being crossed
And cross
And the one I carry
My sister on the day she did marry
Lullabies
And Butterflies
And sad goodbyes
Of journeys taken
And those that surprise
My sweat
And blood
And tears
My vulnerability
My weaknesses
And strengths
Believing
And behaving
And then again not
Addiction
Stresses
And dresses
And addresses
And messes
My moving
And proving
Resurrection
And rejection
And lying
And denying
Reasons
The seasons
And more
trying even harder than before

And finally You.

©spor

100 hundred pieces of ME on a page.
Created to mark the 100th poem I have written/posted from starting my blog.

Sunday, 4 November 2012

Day of the Dead

Flaming sticks in hand
the skeleton hypnotized
the Day of the Dead.

©spor

Life is like a toothbrush !

Life is not like,
a box of chocolates,
they always come with a list
so you can choose
what you desire,
Or warnings
so you can stay clear
of the nuts.

Life is like
a toothbrush,
not very interesting,
often cheap,
personal,
put work in the morning,
reflected back on
in the mirror
last thing at night
and needs changed
every once in a while.

©spor

Always in my life....

three years
gone
absent from this world

no smell from your cigar
hanging in the air
or flakes of rubbed tobacco
from your extinguished pipe
on the book shelf
beside your chair.

no walking stick
resting against the wall
molded to the shape of your strong hand.
or slippers by your foot stool
while your shoes stretched in the hall.

no resting your eyes for a moment
with an open novel on your chest
or little black book for jokes
or disappearing coins

all these things went with you.

three years
gone
absent from this world

but never from my life.

©spor

to you granda. where ever you may be.

the same but harder.

We ate
We drank
We threw up

We slept
We snored
We woke up

We worked
We played
We broke up

I ate
I drank
I threw up

I slept
I snored
I died

©spor

Wednesday, 31 October 2012

Mirror.

While looking at you
I see the person i was
before my mistakes

©spor

Never to be Free.

Its all in your head
freedom is a state of mind
we are all slaves now.

©spor

My one way ticket.

Judgment slowly comes
I wait by the pearly gate
No suitcase in hand.

©spor

alone and loving.

some of us love to live alone,
alone some of us live to love,
some of us live to love alone
some of us live
some of us love
some of us alone.

©spor

Tuesday, 30 October 2012

I did not wake....

Through the fog
among the darkness
footsteps move quickly
scurrying back and forth
stalking me.

I turn to see a flash of fangs
and burning red eyes
of the hell hound
a demon beast
it has haunted and hunted me

Pinned to the ground
the weight of the beast on my chest
its wet breath toxic
burning my eyes
it awaits its master.

I hear a call in the distance
and the hound releases me
scrambling to my feet
I gather myself to flee
To be stopped in my tracks

The master from air appeared
a gaint solid form
cold and damp
death hung in the air
around him.

A disfigured hand reached towards me
I turned away
I could not look death in the face
as it took me from this world
I did not wake from my nightmare .

©spor

Captured

When I look deep into your eyes
I see only me
You have captured me
I am yours

©spor

Sunday, 28 October 2012

If money grew on trees.

"dad , why did you park our car there?"
says my son,
ogling the porsche
parked near by.

"love some one else is driving our car"
says my wife
as a flash sports car
goes by.

if money grew on trees
my orchard would be forever bare .

©spor

for my son.

Morning Alone.

alone i lie
waiting
staring
at the empty pillow
that once supported your beautiful face
my arm across the indentation in the mattress
where your body was cradled while you slept.
morning comes
but alone
she does not bring you with her
i face the day alone.

©spor

From the sands of time he came. (dusty figure #4)

The rumours have Always
been there,
urban legends,
myths of old,
bed time stories told to the children
of pharohs and kings.

When most in Need,
when least expected,
salvation will come
from the arms of a stranger.

Coated with the sands of time,
each Grain of sand,
every spec of dust,
the physical representation of all souls lost,
this burden hE carries always.

The weight he carries now
he can never shed,
appearing to those in their time of need,
not for their saLvation alone,

©spor

Saturday, 27 October 2012

soldier .(dusty figure #3)

thick walls of mud
surround me
As i sit cold and damp
the boards under my feet
sinking
as the rain pours down

I await a whistle
a high pitch call
to take me to my death
to re uNite me
with my fallen brothers .

through the damp air
and haze of smoke and rain
a figure appears
beckoninG me to follow
a dry dusty figure
how did this soldier
escape the rain?

I move to follow
reaching out
through the gloom
there is a thud
followed by an explosion
from where i have just camE

I run back to assist
only to find a crater
in the spot where i had been
i turn in disbelief
to the soLdier
the dusty figure
who had beckoned me away
but he has gone.

©spor

Monday, 22 October 2012

Raining Fire (Dusty Figure #2)

As fire rained from above
smoke
dust
and volcaNic heat
stifled her breathe
from the dark bellowing
cloud of toxic fumes
a dusty figure appeared
arching over her
as she lay helpless
huddled
in a small corner
of the erupting room
using his body as a shield
the mysterious fiGure
lifted the girl into his arms
to carry her to safety
moving through the blazing corridors
avoiding daggers of fire
and spears from hell
emerging to the sanctuary of open Earth.
the girl now frozen with shock
is placed delicately on the soft grass
and while flashing Lights come to a halt
she watches as the dusty figure disappears back through the smoke.
gone.

©spor

Sunday, 21 October 2012

"I'll meet you in the middle without any wings" (Dusty Figure #1)

"I'll meet you in the middle without Any wings"
said the young boy
while clinging to his fathers chest
2 souls
that the dusty figure
had just
saved

He looked down
to see a youNg
blooded fragile hand
give a petrified salute.
while catchinG a look of thanks
and rebirth
from the red and swollen eyes of the father.

Silently a smile raised
behind the mask of the hero,
love
pride 
and hope filled his hEart
fueling him for his journey ahead
as he slowly disappeared into the light of the raising sun

" I'll meet you in the middle with out any wings"
The words stuck in his mind,
what they meant
he did not fully know
but the words remained
echoing
eternity wouLd provide the answer.

@spor

Monday, 15 October 2012

Waiting For You

Palms sweating,
heart palpitating,
knees shaking.
There is a nervous churning
in the pit of my stomach,
as uncontrollable energy
starts to bounce around my body.
My mouth starts to dry
as I try
to think,
form,
rehearse,
the perfect verbal exchange.
Words, words and
more word,
fly around my head
through my line of vision
as if on a page
but none of them are right.
As if flicking
through a dictionary,
there is no sense
in the jumbled order.
They only succeed
in putting random
unrelated thoughts in my mind,
acting as a distraction,
which works,
too well.....
I am disturbed
only by the sound
of knocking,
as knuckle meets the glass
of the passenger door window
where,
you are standing.
Now pointing at the lock
while getting soaked
in a heavy down pour
which must have started when
I was around J or K?
As I unlocked the door
words find their way to my mouth,
could they be the words,
the perfect words
I searched for?
Three words...
No
Umbrella
Love
?
©spor

Sunday, 14 October 2012

PitterPatter RatterTatter

the pitter patter
of my heart
is never heard
when we are apart

the pitter patter
of tiny feet
the sound we heard
when we first did meet.

the ratter tatter
of the front door
a uniform says
you'll be home no more

the pitter patter
of the rain
drowns no sorrows
washes away no pain

©spor

Saturday, 13 October 2012

the sight of you.

My knees will buckle
my eyes open to my soul
just the sight of you..

©spor

Friday, 12 October 2012

Carnival Gold

My daughter has a goldfish
Basil is his name
she won him at a fair ground
playing a carnival game

He lives in a tank
all alone in her room
a small little thing
no decor just gloom

If he had a better memory
he would probably regret
being the only fish selected
by my daughter as a pet

At least where he was
he saw all the fun of the fair
popcorn and candyfloss
and a roller-coaster

But I guess with three seconds
there is a lot to take in
before the memory goes
and then starts to begin.

©spor

Still it Rains

the rain still comes
the cold hits my lungs
as a cough raises in my throat
rasping
tearing
like swallowing a thousand razor blades
rinsed down with barbed wire.
and still it rains.

©spor

Thursday, 11 October 2012

Damp

Moisture in the air
penetrating to my bones
I shiver inside.

©spor

Growing Sorrow

      From your eyes tears fall
  slowly bombarding the ground
only sorrow grows.

©spor

Wednesday, 10 October 2012

Burning Euphoria

Hot like burning coals
are your hands
as they touch my flesh
the moisture of my skin
sizzling under your palm.

Blood coursing through my body
every strand of hair on end
a reaction to the electrical sparks
bouncing between you
and I.

I
I am captured in time
motionless
staring intoxicated
at the beauty of euphoria in your eyes.

©spor

Tickle Pickle.


I am in a bit of a pickle
and finding it hard to speak
every time I try to utter a word
the laughter makes me weak.

I open my mouth a giggle escapes
water is streaming from my eye
it is clear to see the cause of my woe
I am surrounded by octopi.

There are far to many limbs to count
but enough for this continuing tickle
all suggestions are welcome
to help me with my pickle.

©spor

Saturday, 6 October 2012

little flower.

my youngest sister just got married married but an hour
she looks so happy
and beautiful
a perfect little flower

©spor

Thursday, 4 October 2012

Locked Within Me.

The contours of your body
are locked in my mind
every lump
every bump
every freckle or scar
the physical shell of who you are.

The beauty of your soul
is locked in my heart
your laugh
your tears
your hopes and fears.
the emotional being changing through the years.

My love for you
is locked in an embrace
my heart
my soul
my body and mind
they belong to you
and to yours they bind.

©spor

Magnetic You.

As my blood flows
red hot like magma
my mind is in a spin
creating a magnetic field
repelling all others
attracting only you.

©spor

Stealing your breath

When I close my eyes
I picture you lying close
I could steal your breath

©spor

Asleep In The Wake.

Your gentle caress of my skin
causes a tsunami of shivers
through my body,
my back arches
and my lungs expand,
as the tail end of the ripple
waves its way over my spin.
My mind is set a drift
my body controlled by instinct
fueled by lust.
Only in the wake
do I sleep.

©spor

Emotional Silence.

Soft lips flush with red
Penetrating moan echoes
followed by silence.

©spor

Tuesday, 2 October 2012

forever.

flesh to naked flesh
two souls lovingly embrace
intertwined as one.

Sunday, 30 September 2012

Sensuality

My heavy heart pounding
as sweat gathers on my brow
it is you I love.

©spor

Angelic Beauty Queen.

I once new this little girl
Angelic little thing
Once so young
And innocent
A joy to be seen.

But now she is grown up
In fact she is now a teen
My adorable little angel
The beauty blogging queen.

©spor

For my daughter Emily check out her teen beauty blog at
http://lemmylou.blogspot.co.uk/?m=1

My Autumn Leaf

A single brown leaf
floats down from the sky
drifting gently in the breeze
catches my eye.
on the moment of impact
with the concrete ground
everything falls still
there is no one else around
the soft
clean
crisp sound
for my ears alone
the majestic echo
of nature on stone.
once its beauty
acknowledged
the world can begin
with people
and traffic
creating a deafening din.
as the silent
chilly breeze starts to lift
so do does my leaf
my beautiful gift.
only then do I appreciate
the fullness of my surprise
as there are no trees in sight
there are none for miles.

©spor

Saturday, 29 September 2012

Fingers Frantically Fumble .

flowing
freely
fiddling
fingers
frantically
fumble

typing
tender
temptation
through
tantalizing
thoughts

surely
someone
somewhere
senses
sensual
satisfaction

don't
deny
deeply
dreamt
daring
deeds

longingly
live
laugh
look
learn
love

©spor

Stolen Summer .

Hair follicals stand erect
chattering teeth tap out the rhythm
of a song I'm sure I recognize
but just can't put a name to
and all the while
I can't help but wonder
who stole summer?

There were no beach balls
or barbecues
no sand castles built
there was not the predictable pain
of sun burn
followed by the endless
peeling of skin
like an iguana in low humidity

There were no late nights
sitting in the garden
with a glass of red wine
watching the sun
slowly sink to the bottom
of the glass
glowing the sky red.

Summer this year
has been stolen
never to be recovered
all those memories
that were never made
lost
all those songs never written
never to be heard
they may only have stolen summer
but they have taken
so much more.

©spor

Friday, 28 September 2012

City On The Hill.

city on the hill
steep climbs and steps
endless steps
sloping narrow roads
the natives have adapted
walking
standing
sitting
always leaning to one side
the tourist struggles
to navigate the surrounding walls
and winding path ways
that lead to yet
another shopping mall
before finally getting lost
as it all looks the same.

the waterside
the bog side
is the division this city has
needless to say its wet
as the sky opens
and the deluge
puts both natives
and tourist to shame
moving quickly
over every surface with ease
always moving down
and of course
with a lean to the side.

©spor



Wednesday, 26 September 2012

someones been sleeping in my bed!

some one has been sleeping
in my bed
said daddy bear
when he finally made it
up the stairs
his aching knees
both burning
like flares 

He is sure he made it
this morning
and double checked
before leaving the house
but now it's mess
which he does detest
after a hard days work
he looks forward
to his rest.

While scratching his head
he lay down and said
"something not right about that'
so standing tall
he pulled cover and all
till it lay at the foot of the bed

Well low and behold
there lay his nine year old
looking so peaceful
and small
putting away the claws
with his big paws
he carried him gently
down the hall.

While tucking him in
baby bear kissed
his chin and said
" sorry for the mess
I was trying my best
to make sure
you had a comfortable bed"

" It's alright my son
no damage done,
good night
sleep tight
and Godbless "

©spor









For my son Dylan.

down.

I am huddled in the corner
of one room
the one room with the fire
in this four bedroom house
alone now with only my thoughts
they are my only company
my only friend
At first there were four souls
occupying this space
companions
sharing no religion or race.
good times where had
until it went bad
gloom descended on the place
Friendships turned sour
hate flowed by the hour
as those friends ripped
each other apart
no need to pretend
it all had to end
before the sickness
around them
took
prime cuts
from the heart.

here I am
alone
huddled in the corner of one room
the one room without blood
waiting
I am waiting
waiting for some one
to take me away from this town
it is dragging me
down.

down

down.

© spor

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

The Realist, The Optimist and The Pessimist ....

step by careful step
we few move slowly forward
only to fall back.

step by careful step
we all move slowly forward
to achieve our goal.

step by careful step
they all move slowly forward
what's the bloody point!

©spor

Sunday, 23 September 2012

Exhausted Rest (another cup of coffee another cigarette )

As the sun slips away
in that twilight hue
tiredness settles in my eyes
brain
body
and bones.

The struggle of the day past
begins to manifest
in pain
as aching joints
and a resonating pulse
in the core of my mind
throbbing heavier
with every beat of my heart

Sleep is not upon me yet
there are many hours
of torment ahead
of creating distraction
and numbing the senses
before I can hide
in the land of dreaming
another cup of coffee
another cigarette.

Once the night has fully come
and the clock hours
begin to ascend
I can lay silent
in the dark
closing my eyes
to a whirling dervish of thoughts
flashbacks of the hours lived.

With exhaustion
the conscious mind
eventually losses the battle of control
and the sub conscious
becomes the puppet master
manipulating my thoughts
projecting my visions
tearing my dreaming body
through dark under worlds
and blinding skies.

When the dark of night burns away by the heat of the morning sun
the conscious mind gains back control
exhausted from my dark rest
I awake to face another day
another cup of coffee
another cigarette
another heart beat
another breath.

©spor




Friday, 21 September 2012

TAp TAP taP

I have the want to write
but there are little thoughts in my head
the grey matter is feeling hollow
the passion is surely dead.

I am running on autopilot
muscle memory ruling the roost
I need a shot of something
to give myself a boost.

I'll just keep my fingers moving
there is some connection to the brain
perhaps the continuous tapping
will find away through the pain.

©spor

Silenced by society

My every thought
is muted gagged and silenced
by society .

©spor

Thursday, 20 September 2012

Empty Panic

panic and fear
runs through my body
paralysed
confused
a cold sweat
settles on my brow.

when the shock passes
i gather my thoughts
how do i deal with
what has confronted me
there must be a resolve
a solution
a cure.

the coffee jar is empty
and the shop shut.
the emergency supply
long since gone
used and not replenished .

©spor



Monday, 17 September 2012

brothers and sisters .

I have two brothers
and then of course me
and two sisters also
to add to us three
all very different
that's plain to see
but very much part
of one family.

sometimes we don't talk
for months at a time
a text now and then
to check all is fine

but if there is crisis
or a need to be filled
we bond quicker than concrete
that could never be drilled

to my brothers
and sisters
who i hold deep
in my heart
remember we are always together
especially when apart.


©spor

Sunday, 16 September 2012

my one love...

with out my one love
i would crumble and be lost
my wife gives me life.

©spor

blue gu !

blue gu covers me
poured from the heavens
it smothers
and has me bound
like pharoah long dead

from it i can not break free
like a bath of treacle
or quick sand
it sucks at my body
pulling me down

I gasp for air
fighting for life
each breath more difficult
than the last
as i panic for the next.

©spor

sleep ........

while i was sleeping
my own world abruptly changed
awoke to silence

@spor

Monday, 10 September 2012

Fighting Sorrow

"peacefully while sleeping"
the words ring in my ears

as the shock grabbed me by the throat,
choking back all emotion,
my mind,
broken.
my heart,
torn.

fighting back the tears,
holding at bay the grief,
just to get through the day.

when safe at home
with the ones I cherish most,
the floods will come.

there I shall drown.
slowly in salty tears of sorrow,
for only they could rescue me.



©spor

sorrowful change ...

As Autumn arrives
the youth of Spring slips away
gently with the breeze.

©spor

Thursday, 30 August 2012

- From the corner where i sit...

staring at the once white wall
i watch the streaks of red run rancid
rage still streaming
around me people screaming
as i sit alone
in my windowless
upholstered
room

SILENCE!



AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

©spor

Aging .

my son turns nine  soon,
my father thought he was six,
all getting older

©spor

Tuesday, 28 August 2012

Blue Crow With Wings Of Fire...


as the blue crow
flew low
through the red
and amber glow

its wings on fire
as it soared higher
then final perched
on a distant spire

what a sight
on a summer night
an emotion arose
of sheer delight

i will never forget
such a sun set
not seen another
as beautiful yet.



©spor

clearing my head (haiku)

haiku before bed,
assists with clearing my head,
sweet dreams everyone.

;-)

©spor

Monday, 27 August 2012

Drift.

close your eyes and dream,
as blissful thoughts consume you,
drift away just drift.

©spor

Slow Dying Star. *

the stars light is gradually fading,
the world around is growing dim,
the warmth in the air is degrading,
the cold is rooting with in.

the last of the light flickers gently,
the final breath is slowly exhaled,
the occupied space soon will empty,
the loving heart has silently failed.

Star Light

I raised my head up to the sky
and the light from the stars
pierced my eye
that wondrous beauty
in the heavens above
is for all to share
but not all will love

Saturday, 25 August 2012

Little Angel there...

Little Angel there
sitting huddled in the chair
with golden locks
and eyes so blue
thy weeping heart
does not suit you.

Little Angel there
do not think I do not care
I see you are hurt
and dark with sorrow
take all the love and joy I have
it is here for you to borrow.

Little Angel there
my happiness is yours to share
now stand up tall
and spread your wings
cast away those salty tears
think no more of sorrowful things.

Little Angel there
sitting huddled in the chair
with golden locks
and eyes so blue
I'll chase away your sadness
I am always here for you.

©spor

Saturday, 11 August 2012

Not Safe In The Shadows

Something fluttered in the shadows
of that sodium glow,
that orange coloured street light
that we have all come to know.

On closer inspection
I see the shape of a man,
a motionless figure
lying silent and calm.

I call out "hello"
I don't know why,
but i received no response
I heard no reply.

Concerned for this person
I moved closer to check,
if they were hurt in any way
or just a drunk, just a wreck.

The nearer I got
the more worried I became,
I called " hello" again
and introduced myself by name.

It was then that I realized
that this man was dead,
and had probably suffered
a severe blow to the head.

What I saw next
is no word of a lie,
from his face crawled a rat
from the socket of his eye.

I turned to be sick
turned on the spot,
when one rat turned to two
three four then a lot.

It was then that it hit me
I'd been lured into their trap,
a strategic plan
marked out on a map.

My pulse started racing
my chest became tight,
I was full of fear
being consume by fright.

Frozen to the spot
I just stared at the ground,
as these rats now hundreds
just run round and round.

Then all went silent
all went still,
and over come with panic
I became violently ill.

With the force of my retching
I fell to my knees,
as tears streamed my cheeks
I sobbed the word " please ".

While I was crying
in my penitent pose,
it was clear this was revenge
from my four legged foes.

For as they scurried towards me
I became suddenly mute,
seeing the body on the ground
held close an old flute.

©spor

Thursday, 9 August 2012

- Juliet

in that moment of silence
at the very end
when my heart stops beating
and breath takes its last pause
i pray to god that i have died for a cause.

from that dead silence i awake to rapturous applause
i raise to my feet to take a bow
and thank god for his help
as he got me here
some how.
now my heart beats strong
feel the pulse on my vein
until tomorrow
when i die
all over again.

this is my cause.

©spor

Heavenly Delight

coffee has always be special
many of you know i am right
my Latte was even more so
the face of Jesus lay in the froth tonight.

perhaps it was made by an angel
or the beans grown on a holy site
but as sure as god i drank it
my little bit of heavenly delight.

©spor


Wednesday, 8 August 2012

demons.

they try to control
wings invisible surround
they are my demons

©spor

Tuesday, 7 August 2012

window shopping.

steely eyes impaled
my body violated
look but do not touch

©spor

Monday, 6 August 2012

The house that consumes


Isolated,
at the top of a long once gravel drive,
as it slowly consumes the sun,
it casts a shadow,
covering the expanse of over grown lawns.

Inviting is not how it would be described,
but there is a calling,
a beckoning,
a deep curiosity,
that draws me in.

A shiver passes up my spin,
as the air turns cold,
wooden boards creak on the floor above
as the stereotypical squeak of the large front door
pierces my ear drum.

As I walk down the long darkening passageway,
the world outside disappears,
hidden behind the tattered curtains
and dust covered glass,
the corridor constricts around my body.

I tentatively step my way towards an open door,
unsure of what the crunching beneath my feet might be,
dried leaves blown in by the wind,
or the decomposing carcasses of other creatures
who to answered the calling of this house.

An explosion of fragrance,
cigar smoke,
and freshly cut flowers,
attack my senses when,
there is a flicker of light in the corner of my eye.

I turn,
only to see a long since dead bouquet
up ended on a small table in the corner of the the room,
the shattered remains of a crystal vase
glisten in a dust filled crack of light that bravely penetrates through the dark.

Again the wooden floor above creaks,
this time with purpose,
with the repetition of a child's foot steps running to hide,
as the wind counts to ten through a broken pane in the stained glass window,
at the top of the stairs.

As I gently rest my hand on the once majestic,
now vine covered balustrade,
and raise my foot to the the stair,
the house falls silent,
almost in anticipation of my ascent.

Stair by stair,
heart beat by heart beat,
I make my way to the top of the stair case,
and through the broken stained pane,
I see the last of the sunlight disappear on the horizon.

As I move along the landing,
the wind begins to count,
the wooden boards creak louder than before,
and through half opened doors
I see the shadows hide.

A door that is different than all the others,
remains closed,
curiosity is no longer moving me,
but some invisible,
untraceable force drives me forwards.

I reach for the well worn 
yet highly polished door knob,
odd that dust has not found a place to rest here.
With the clockwise turn of my wrist I hear the clicking of the spring,
the mechanism that will reveal what is hidden behind.

Unwillingly,
unknowingly,
I push the door open
and cross the threshold,
walking to the centre of the room the door slams shut.

I suddenly become aware,
and again the house falls silent,
the creaking of the wooden boards has ceased,
the wind has no numbers left to count,
it is my turn to run and HIDE!



Guiding Angel

Angel in the light
cradle my soul in your heart
guide me through the dark.


©spor


@under_the_table

Sunday, 5 August 2012

Tear Drop.

I close my eyes,
and fall,
I feel the cold cutting air beat against my cheeks
and burn my face.

The tears stream
from the corners of my eyes
briefly leaving a glistening trail
before joining the moisture of the clouds.

interesting that a tear
should be the one thing
that I leave behind.
My legacy

A single tear drop,
captured in a cloud
only to be released
to give life.

Will this be my reincarnation,
when that single tear drop
cries from a cloud
to land on the wing of a butterfly.

To rest on a leaf,
to dry in the warmth of the sun
before gracefully floating off
bringing joy and a smile to all those I pass.

If this were true,
then I could shake the fear
that is starting to build in my mind
as my expired body reaches terminal velocity.

--------------------------------------------------

©spor

I will always be there.

Wrap your arms around me,
hold me close to you heart,
remember I will always be there,
even if we are apart.

On days when you are lonely,
or times when you feel blue,
remember I will always be there,
and that I love you

©spor

Dream Protectors.

Angels surround me
As the night to this day starts,
Protectors of dreams.



© spor

In Out.....

in
out
in out
in
the movement of my chest
as I inhale the polluted air
the invisible black poison
I absorb the toxins
before releasing what remains
in
out in
out
in
the hands of a doctor
clasped upon my chest
pumping in succession
the nurse squeezing on a bag
my artificial breath
out
in out
in out
in
I'm moved from a place of rest
making my final journey
as the hands of my family
hold out their hearts
and hold in their tears


©spor

Saturday, 4 August 2012

final wave.

when i waved to you
you grasped my hand
as if you had never seen hand before.
even though you have two perfectly formed ones of your own.
what happened next i really did not expect.
as you forced my hand towards your mouth i thought
hang on a minute
what's going on here???
aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!
you bit me?
last time I'll wave at a baby in the coffee shop.
©spor

the audience. . .

from the dark corner
i hear the laughter travel
all the worlds a stage.



©spor

where does it go?

bloody hell again
my coffee cup is empty
there must be a hole.




©spor

cold to the soul.

I can feel the dead cold
from the silent stone flags
beneath my feet,
it travels through my boots
and straight to my  soul.

I raise my head
from a moment of contemplation,
and gaze upon a crucified Christ
with pity in his eyes,
a candle and a prayer
that's what i was taught,
its all i have to give.

receive my gift
my light,
let it warm my heart
before these silent stone flags
awake to wave good bye.




©spor

BLESSED

Beautifully
Loved

Extraordinarily
Successful

Sensibly
Encouraging

Dull!

©spor

ah-chew

my nose is running
elephant sits on my chest
a cold? Its summer !
©spor

Cage


Poor little bird
sitting in your cage,
when you swing on the swing
do you do it in rage?

I wonder what you are thinking
when you sit on your perch?

Do you think of freedom?
flying?
nesting in trees?
or
blue skies?
sunshine?
the right to do as you please?

Poor little bird
sitting in your cage,
when you peck at the little mirror
do you do it in rage?

I wonder what you are feeling,
when you sit on your perch,

Do you feel lonely?
sad?
angry at your state?
are you longing for friendship?
do you pine for a mate?

Poor little bird
sitting in your cage,
shall I open the door,
fold it back like a page?

Would you stop
to say thank you
or is your rage due to me?
escape little bird,
fly high, fly free.

Poor little bird flaps quickly,
then out through the door,
flies to the open window,
but flies no more.

Poor little bird looks out
at the expanse of land,
then with the slightest of cheeps,
flies
to
rest
in
my
hand...


©spor




phone call...


my phone rang.
it was my sister?
she never calls,
i realise i miss her.

the call ends.
the bringer of bad news.
the worst kind.
a family member soon we'd lose.

on my mothers side,
in fact her sister.
four to six months,
emotion swells like a blister.

the killer cancer
hits our family again...
so many lost.

so much pain.

©spor

. (dot)


what do you do
when you see a .
such a small little character
can mean such a lot .

when you see a .
do you take a moment to think .
of the words you just read,
do you search for the link .

what do you do
when you see a .
do you scan ahead,
so involved in the plot .

when you see a .
do you stop to inhale .
before continuing to read
verse, book or short tale .

what do you do
when you see a .
do you close your eyes,
create characters on the spot .

when you see a .
do you let loose a smile .
then venture forth on your journey,
forming memories to file .

what do you do
when you see a .
do you let out a sigh,
it's now time to stop .

©spor

twitter

cell phone almost died
the spring my brain nearly fried,
hit one thousand tweets.

My Demons


When I close my eyes,
they come to me,
pulling,
tugging,
stripping,
cutting,

Featureless ,
void of solid state,
the swirling matter black,
torments and tortures.

Each breathe I take
heavier than the last,
my aching lungs crushed
by their invisible, unbreakable grasp.

There is no noise,
they do not speak,
these formless demons
drain my life,
until i'm weak.

What happens next,
I do not know,
I could not say,
my conscious state leaves me,
it never does stay.

I have no wounds,
there are no scares,
despite the abuse
that goes on for hours.

The pulling,
tugging,
stripping,
cutting,
tearing at my flesh,
at my breathe,
at my soul.

Ripping at my heart,
gouging through my mind,
there is no visible trace
these demons leave behind.

At the end of the day,
when I turn out the light,
and climb into bed,
tiredness and sleep I fight,
I know they are waiting,
anticipating.

Have to stay awake,
or my bones
they will break,
the swirling matter black,
that confuses and abuses,
its destroying me!

©spor

My Tall Desire....


she sits in front of me,
tall,
her body slender,
silky smooth.

i stare at her,
observing every ounce
of what she is,
she draws me in.

i wrap my hands
around her body,
i can feel her warmth,
i pull her close.

her essence hangs
in the air,
and as i breath her in,
my desire takes control.

slowly i bring her
to my lips,
and taste heaven,
i consume her.

once drained
of all that she was,
i relinquish my grasp,
i have found love.

©spor

STILL ---------


For although the night
has fallen silent,
and the stars have all gone dim,
Even though the moon is tucked up
warm behind a cloud,
and the sun has long gone in,

Even with the ground now covering
the heart that no longer beats,
and the casket surrounding your body
with the silk shroud full of pleats,
Even with the time that has past
though its not yet be a year,
I still feel your warmth
and hear your wisdom in my ear.

©spor

Void ---------

A strange word,
The very sound of it is hollow,
V o i d,

Void, an empty space,
a                        ,
A nothingness,
Void,

Avoid a Void,
For although it is an empty space,
A nothingness,
A hollow,

It can feel like a stone in your heart,
and cause more pain and anguish,
Than a bullet to the head.

Which indeed would leave a Void.

©spor

the Long Journey ...

For you the journey has ended,
And I hope that you have reached
That Final Destination,
And been welcomed,
with open arms.

I must now continue on,
Complete my journey,
Though through foggy eyes I wander,
Making the days dark and long,
And with constant fear that I may crash.

I know that even from where you are
you can guide me,
Steer me along the path,
Until I emerge from this choking blanket,
And feel the warmth of the light again.


©spor

Mouse...

saw a little mouse
scurry across the floor,
a tiny little thing
four cm's no more,

as i watched the little fellow
just run across the tile,
i swear the rascal winked at me,
and i think there was a smile.


©spor



Memories

A word,
A sentence,
A verse of a song,
We all find one of these
       and hold on.

We will carry it with us,
For the rest of our days,
And look back and think,
About those times long ago,
And smile ...



©spor

The Gathering.


Chitter Chatter,
Pitter Patter,
                           words,
                           watching,
                           wisdom,
                           worries,
                           wonderings,
                           wondrous,
                           words.
        
                                   Chitter Chatter,
                                   Pitter Patter,
listening,
looking,
lessons,
love,
lingering,
lovely,
language.

                    Chitter Chatter,
                    Pitter Patter,

                                       collect,
                                       consume,
                                       clever,
                                       care,
                                       curiosities,
                                       creative,
                                       conversation,

Chitter Chatter,
Pitter Patter,
      
          frankness,
                following,
                      fulfillment,
                           foes,
                                 frowns,
                                        fabulous,
                                              friends,

Chitter Chatter, Pitter Patter,

Persons,
People,
Pals.


©spor

                                    
         
              






Before...

So they met,
The group,
The crowd,
Those who had gathered before.

There was no plan,
They met,
Just to go,
To leave.



©spor

11/03/01

Reflection


when you look at me
what do you see?

a boy?
a man?
a husband?
a father?

when you look at me
who do you see?

the boy i was?
the man i am?
the husband i need to be?
the father i have become?

look at me,
do you see?
do you see
Me?



©spor

life ?

Barks,
Purrs,
People,
Faces,
I am lost,
Lost in a jungle,
The jungle of life.

But LIFE,
WHAT IS LIFE?

Is LIFE us.
Us humans?
Breathing,
Beating,
Hurting,
Healing,

Or is LIFE,
What happens around Us,
Day by Day?
Demolition,
Destruction,
Creation,
Construction,

What do you think it means?

LIFE !




©spor

My Ghosts.


As i sit here with my ghosts
i can breathe
i feel at peace.

When i shut my eyes to the room
they show themselves
sitting in their favourite chair.

They look at me
not with sadness
but with joy in their eyes.

A smile conveys
that they are happy
they are at peace.

And as i am filled with
an overwhelming sense of pride
i open my eyes.

When i look back
to their favourite seats
they are empty.

I smile
thank them for their visit
and say good bye.

©spor

The Honest Heart

As the mouth opened
to draw in a breath
out fell the words
of an honest heart.

Words that had once
been buried
words that had been
stored away
remembered
rehearsed
prepared for this day.

Once hidden for fear of rejection
they now would be voiced
in just one direction
for i thought they would be returned.

©spor

tears from the sky.


Thunder, lightening
turn the sky wet cold and grey
even angels cry.
©spor

Tea ? No thanks!

I am now 33
and i don't like tea
coffee is the only drink for me.

When i first met the girl
who would later become my wife
she offered me tea the first year of our life.

Despite all her effort
it just wouldn't do
now she only drinks coffee to.


©spor

just not the same.


sitting at a side walk table
scruffy hair
un shaven
extinguished hand rolled cigarette
hangs from my mouth
glasses perched on the end of my nose.
Latte warming the palm of my hand
i look out to the distance
searching for inspiration
for the completion of my new piece.

then head down
i start to write.

tap

on the touch screen
of my mobile phone.

its just not the same.

©spor

final journey

the cars lungs choking
spitting and coughing out tar
journeys end is near.

©spor

little child


little child playing alone in the park,
why so sad?
why out in the dark?

little child playing alone on the bars,
you look cold, are you tired?
have you been here for hours?

little child playing alone on the swing,
what has happened to your lip?
it looks sore, does it sting?

little child playing alone on the slide,

lets get you some help!

little child hugged me and cried.

©spor

the future

my pen has broken
the pages are all but gone
digital poet

©spor